It is 2.30, we watch the clock, hoping time for once will stand still.
Jessie and me have been keeping a secret, a secret too painful to tell the kids, too painful to tell hubby. They are all still grieving for Storm, so how could I watch their hearts break with the news that our baby girl Jess has cancer. Well I watched her and I knew signs would come that she was losing this battle, I knew her eyes would tell me when enough was enough.
I told Amy and Brian a few days ago, I told little Jason this morning,. I watched their hearts break all over again but I know they were better off not knowing that we were losing Jess, it has been awful looking at my beautiful Jess and knowing her time left with us was to be cut short. She is going downhill hour by hour, a very rapid decline that is wrong, so very wrong.
In an hour we will be there for the last close of her eyes. we will kiss her. tell her we love her and then let Storm take her over the bridge to a better place where she will be with her beautiful son forever, released from pain that became so obvious in the last day.
We love you so much Jess, and we will not let you linger in pain when something so beautiful awaits you. One day we will all meet at the bridge, but until then I will miss you so much, just like I miss our Stormy Boy, so you give that gentle giant a kiss from me and be free my sweet baby girl, x x x x x.